Usually, thoughts like this come when I am high (medicated) I think about how nice some people could be. Specifically to me and it feels good. How some just lay it all out their waiting for me, to just be with them. Instead I would emotionally abuse them in one way or another. Today is different though, with pain radiating downs my legs I feel a little euphoric, perhaps even nostalgic. What is different about today? I guess am at peace with myself for some reason. After working at a job over ten years I am finding myself looking for work, and probably going to drowned in mortgage payments perhaps it is the realization that it is just money. Never was concerned about money never was wealthy just never cared much about it, time to rebuild my life.
Given a choice I would make similar choices throughout my life.
So far here are my outlooks and life lessons if you care to read.
If you are a Wolf be a Wolf if a Sheep be a Sheep but never regret what you are and posing will quickly establish your position. Wolves are not cuddly not kind not sweet they dress well they look nice but it is a marriage. Everything a Wolf does is Neurotic everything said illicit. People get drawn in by the charm the kind nature and even though warned they ignore the danger. Most people are much like sheep fallow the signs do what's "right" but never question things. For sack of this point without sheep wolves will also die, but without the wolves thinning the numbers the sheep will die overpopulation. Although, there must be a third party the dog. The dog is a loyal companion to the sheep but on occasion will eat one of the sheep with his family. See as loyal as the dog is it must eat its puppies as well of death imminent.
It is my belief that this world has far too many dogs and sheep and if we look at it what are wolves really but wild dogs. During the plagues wolves were feared so the dog had to grow in population to save the sheep. What now do the sheep destroy us all or will the wolves soon rise? Be the best at whatever you are it is what you owe the world.
Accept mistakes; learn to swallow your pride.
Enjoy peaceful sleep.
If you can handle disappointment, believe people are "altogether good".
Study never stop studying.
In fact when you can't sleep study.
Travel with no money. Shoot just travel. When traveling stay a hostile.
Empirical evidence. Don’t take people at their word.
Lead by example also follow by example.
Try to be nice to people.
You will fail a lot sometime failing is its own success.
Did I mention failing happens often?
Waiters and waitresses are people you can look them in the eye and take 1 second to read their name tag.
On elevators stand at the door and face people.
Smile if you can.
Enjoy your life it is very short!
Enjoy those around you people die often and without notice and without any regard to your feelings on the subject.
Enjoy pain free days
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I will continue this later I guess I should try to sleep.